Tuesday, November 24, 2009

- updates :

Around two months have passed since i last post. Sch started after all the camps and courses. This sem, my sch assignments were not as much as the last few sem due to having only three modules left. In the past few weeks, i have been studying with jewellcy and wesley. Studying outside with them is alot better then studying alone at home or in the library as when one get bored, we still have friends around to chat/joke with. And also when i see them studying hard, i will be motivated to study as well and not do other stuff.

Last week was my elearning and also the busiest week. Have to finish my elearning in time and also helping out in the Red Camp. Helping out in the red camp was fun and challenging as the grps has only 20 mins to complete their low elements and only a few will be able to try the parafan. Beside helping in red camp, there is also the MOT camp helpout. During this helpout, i found out that i have to start to change the way i facilitate the grps as i am starting to get bored with the same way and i also noticed that my standard of facilitating has startd to drop.

Within 12 days, i will need to complete my napfa test and also the Standard Chartered run. There is totally no time to train for both and i hope that i will be able to push myself to get at least a silver in Napfa and also to complete standard chartered run without any hiccup.

Now currently thinking of what to do after my attachment. Wont be able to attend OB training as often as i like, no more facilitating in Kismis adventure park, and my favourite outdoor activities stuff will also be cut down. One option is to work for TAM as a facilitator after their basic facilitator course but will it be the same working with them as compared to helping in OB.

Friends... Whats the different between a true friend and a best friend? Who is my true friend and who is my best friend? Currently i think all my friends are consider friends with no best or true in front.. If someone who have went through courses and camps together, what sort of friends are they consider to be? If someone has been ur friend for more then 4 yrs, what sort of friends is he/her? How to determine what sort of friends are my friends.Do i need lots of friends but with no true/best friend or do i need best/true friend with an average amount of friends?

Feelings... Is all feelings true? Do i follow all my feelings or hold back? Do i take the risk or stay as it is?

Haiz... after much thinking, i think i should stay as it is for now until i can really sort things out..

{she was all that I needed} // and my eyes change accordingly.
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